We've been so busy here at the house that I just simply haven't had a moment to sit and write clearly.
Anyhow - I am now 5 months out from my surgery now. Loving everything so far except for a couple of areas that are revealing some laxity around my scar (around my hipbones) that may need some revision. I'm not 100% sure what is going to happen yet, but it'll be addressed in the next week or so on what will happen and we will go from there.
I had a call from my surgeons nurse and they said it could either be a teeny touch up, or it could end up being where I need to have my whole incision brought to a 360 around my whole body. I've lost 8-10ish lbs since surgery and my skin by my flanks and hips can get kinda loose so we are going to address that soon.
So current update on weight: I'm 161-162 and hanging in. My goal to reach is 155.
6-7 more lbs to reach my goal, and only 3 to pass this threshold. I graduated at 167 I believe and I'm in a much better spot that before kids, thankfully. I'm also now in size medium tops and size 8 jeans. It feels great! :)
I'm sure by June I'll be in a 6, and that was never a possible thing for high school.
It does feel pretty cool though getting to look around at everything that I couldn't even just a year ago. Actually, I just flushed out my entire dresser and closet for the eleventybillionth time since September and I actually had an emotional break at one point.
Most of my 'tops' were maternity.
I relied on it and had accepted it for so long.
None of them fit.
Not the right way at least.
I loved those tops in a way because back then I felt good, but looking at it now, I had just accepted where I was and made no effort to push forward. I fast forward to now and have a hard time believing that these left over pieces of my old wardrobe were what kept me mostly together.
And to be honest.
I'm kinda scared to go out and look for a whole new set of comfort clothes.
It's the unknown that kinda is shaking me if that makes sense.
"But Meg, this is a good problem."
Yes, I know that, but at the same time I'm totally starting over and have no idea how to shop for clothes for my body type now, and I have to do it slowly so I don't break our bank lol. I don't even own a bra that isn't for working out. My last bra I bought was a 40D.
I comes now where to fitting me now.. (I probably should go get fitted.)
Anyhow -- I started about a little over a week ago on a workout schedule again.
Lifting 4x a week with 1 zumba in the middle.
It really does feel great to be doing this again - I missed it terribly.
My goal along with the weight, is to have myself down to an 18% body fat.
My love handle area and hip bones (from the skin loosening up some) and upper inner thighs are my trouble spots. Despite weight loss and skin removal, I still have spots to work on.
My journey will never end I don't think, haha.
But that's okay, it's good to have goals to always work on to better improve yourself.
After learning that I can push through anything, as hard headed and stubborn as I am, I think anyone can. You just have to focus on why you're doing it and keep reminding yourself to keep your eyes on the goal, even if you have times that you're slowly inching instead of leaping towards where you're going.
Never. Give. Up. Ever.
A couple of weeks ago I went to a body-building expo and learned quite bit of what it'll take to get myself ready for my first bikini competition. I thought I was close to being able to just cut a little and be ready quickly but that wasn't right at all. I have some diet tweaks to make as well as many hours of work in the gym ahead of me until I'm anywhere close. But I'm way closer than I was a year ago, which is encouraging.
I'm here are my before shots in a bikini. I still need to take the posing classes to get this down, but here I am at around 24/25% body fat.
Here is my current back shot.
I feel like this was way more defined last summer when I was working out, even when I was heavier.
I've got a lot of muscle building to do, but I can finally put my stuff back up for progress photos. :)
Amongst the chaos, I'll have my husband shoot some professional ones on my next update :)
(And my first single digit pants, my size 8's)
since moving to TX 9 years ago.
I hope to make these big on me by this summer.
I'm really curious to see how far all of this will go this year.
In a non-workout realm, we have all survived the stomach flu this week, and are preparing for a birthday party (round one of three) this weekend. Next is in March, and Third is in April.
This little girl just turned 5.
I can't believe it.
I love you Kaelyn. <3
My hubby and I are also celebrating our 11 year (dating) anniversary.
We've been married now for 6 years, and approaching 7 in July but, we are planing our wedding renewal. Back when we did get married we had a short courthouse one because we had a very low budget and timing with life wasn't where it needed to be to have the wedding we wanted. Well, now that we have our completed family and things are on the upswing,
we are headed in that direction for next Spring to renew our vows and walk the isle after torturing
(... haha.. )
LOVING each other for 12 years and being married for 8! ;)
8 is a special number for us that I'll spill on later, but it also represents the infinity symbol and I think it's kinda a cool thing to renew our vows on.
So between reaching my body fat goal, and planning this wedding renewal...
I have a lot on my plate for the next year.
Also, Happy Chinese New Year! :)
There will be more updates very soon.
XOXO
